It's pretty amusing how we can surprise ourselves sometimes by the things we do. It's like "Oh, I didn't know I could do that!". Haha and for a moment you are quite proud of yourself and will probably try to give yourself a pat on your own back (secretly at home?). Lol...
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It's Sunday night.
Hmmm....
Feeling kinda funny...
Off for a jog...
Today I understood a few things.
1) Meaning of "A Calling".
It's simply a voice in you calling out to you to do something. It's a naggy voice which will continue to bug you until you address it.
That's a calling.
And then I remembered. Something has been calling out to me for YEARS. I always ignore it because it will definitely change me, my lifestyle and all. I wasn't sure if I'm up to it...
But now I am ready to face it.
2) Leukemia
Recently someone quite close to me told me he used to have Leukemia when he was young. I knew about that long ago though. He's healthy and ok now.
Then, I didn't have a good understanding of what Leukemia was all about. Coincidentally, today's lecture was about Blood and Leukemia was mentioned.
It's a blood cancer where the white blood cell (WBC) grows out of control. Those WBCs are not functional and displace the remaining healthy ones. This causes a weak immune system which can lead to many diseases.
(Edited from lecture notes)
I also learnt that if the cancer cells are still intact, it's still curable. But if it has spread into the bloodstream and other parts of the body, then it can only be controlled and not cured...
Can check up on the validity of these points...
Then again, it leads me to think back on Leukemia. It's a BLOOD cancer, meaning the cancerous WBCs are already all over the body.
I thought of my friend. Truly it was a miracle for him. And I really don't wanna think too deep into that.
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Chatted up with a Medical student last week. He told me he wanna be an Oncologist.. There was so much surety and confidence in his words, it kinda warmed my heart. I love to be around people who are passionate in what they are doing. There is just a certain attractiveness in them.
On the other hand, people who find everything so sian can really drain away my energy... I normally avoid them...
I'm really loving school Haha. I look forward to going to school every morning even if it means I have to wake up at 6.30am almost every day.
That's quite a big statement considering I'm not/never a morning person. =X
I always stand by this:
Do what you love and love what you do.
Of course it's easy to do what we love. However, we don't always love what we do. Actually, we can reverse that, just gotta find JOY in everything we do then we'll start loving it.
Does it make sense? :)
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Oh btw, I mentioned that the last sense to stop functioning is the sense of hearing.
In my personal opinion... The FIRST sense to stop functioning is probably our COMMON sense. It may sound quite funny, but think about it. :)
Turn your eyes unto Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of the world will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.
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But as it is written: “ Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”
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There are a lot of things which I do not understand. I probably don't have to and probably never will. There's probably a price to pay for being simple-minded.
Come to think of it, there's a price to pay for everything.
A lot of people simply can't appreciate simplicity. I can't understand why again. They love complicating things, that probably give them some kicks and perks in their otherwise boring lives.
Give a literal example, in the medical field, some weirdos came up with bombastic names for every part of the body as if Biology is not complicated enough... They really don't like to use layman terms like windpipe, gullet, arm and so on... And then they realised it's making things real difficult. They decided to reduce them to abbreviations.
And now we need to remember BOTH.
I digressed! It's probably a lousy example anyway. :)
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Off for a walk...
I'm totally loving school! It's been 2 weeks and it's fun thus far. Haha. Still need a little getting-used-to though.
I really love Biology and learning things about our own bodies. That makes it easier I guess... I come to realise that the human body is SO complex YET so systematic. In the complexity, all functions in the body are still carried out neatly and orderly..
That truly amazes me.
That truly is not by chance but very well-planned.
By the way, some fun facts.
By far, there has been NO record of any heart cancer. (But lots of records of broken hearts.)
And the last sense to stop functioning is the sense of HEARING. So even though a person may be in coma or at the very last moment of life, he can still hear you. It's amazing. So continue to talk to and pray for that person if situations like that arise.
Just a casual question. Is it better to die with regrets or live with regrets?
What do you regret not doing?
*God never fails to amaze me.*
ATTENTION!!!
Can anyone sponsor me...
1) A handphone
2) A printer
3) A laptop
?????????????????????????
Please? =)
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Went for my first nus orchestra rehearsal today, I was totally taken aback by...
1) The size of the orchestra. There were already 12 cellists, so imagine the total number of people...
2) The standard of the orchestra. We played 2 pieces by Rossini. It's MADNESS to the max. The same kind of feeling came back when I first joined chc orchestra... Hmm...
3) The pro-ness of the cellists... Except me. Sigh... Whined to my cello teacher and he really encouraged and talked sense into me... Thou shall persevere no matter what.
It's a very big challenge for me, but since I'm in it now, there's no turning back. Must improve even more now... It's quite mentally distressing but it's really an honour for me to be able to play in this orchestra...
Oh btw, I was pleasantly surprised to see my JC MATHS TEACHER playing in the orchestra too!!! (Thank God I remembered his name...) He came back as an alumni... To think that we used to make fun of him... =X
Orchestra is where people from ALL walks of life come together as one, with the same heartbeat, playing the same song. It really doesn't matter who you are or what you do.
It makes us forget about life for a while...
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The world is our stage and life is a big drama...
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Last week - It passed real fast.
Yesterday - Had an orchestra cum choir performance @ St Andrew's Cathedral, at their new 'underground' church. It was great I think. Sat beside a SSO violist whose teacher was my NUS symphony orchestra conductor who was also my cello teacher's conductor before in SNYO. The music circle is really small in sg...
Today - Went for morning prayer meeting @ JW, saw Matt and we had breakfast together after that with his cg member. Out of the blue while we were eating, her hp rang and it was her grandpa calling from Indonesia with the news that her MUM has passed on. My heart broke for her.
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... with unpredictable twists and turns...
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Matt drove me to school in his new car! It was really cool. He installed something which can allow him to listen to songs from his iPod in his car. Is this device common? Or am I not updated? Hahaha.
Met Cai after school @ Orchard. At the end of the day, I LOST MY HANDPHONE. She was quite surprised that I was so calm haha. I mean... There's nothing to make a big fuss over since it's already gone.
So, my apologies for any inconvenience caused while trying to reach me, have to go into the MIA mode for a while. In the meantime, you can contact me via email or MSN. I'll try to settle everything in 3 days' time.
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... But the show still goes on.
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I pray You'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know.
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way.
Lead us to a place, guide us with Your grace
To a place where we'll be safe.
I pray we'll find Your light,
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night,
Remind us where You are...
Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Guide us with Your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe.
Did CPR today, it was kinda physically demanding. Anyway I did something in school today... I'm such a wimp sometimes.
Visited the Anatomy Hall in school ytd, the entire room was filled with an overwhelming smell of formalin. Saw a few cadavers, some dried up and some whole ones.
Went up to the Anatomy Museum after that and saw almost all the body parts, inside out. I know more about me and you now.
Made my stomach churned while eating my chicken chop right after that.
Week 1 of school is over. It's kinda fun so far.
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Had piano lesson just now... I played quite badly. Anyway, my teacher thought that my exam result was 'so low'. So I shouldn't be too happy about it actually haha. But well... I didn't expect that since I screwed up so I feel happy about it.
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Anyway......
Today must have been a really special happy day!!!!!
1) Went for NUS symphony orchestra audition today and I got in!!! YESSSSS!!! That means FREE CELLO LESSONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really need to improve cos I've been stagnant for quite long and my rate of progression is at snail pace.
But that also means I can't attend the church rehearsals cos it clashes. Good also, if not it's quite shiong.
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3) Came home and saw that my piano exam result has been sent to my house!!! And PRAISE THE LORD I got a MERIT!!!!!!!!!! It's really a surprise considering how much I screwed up the whole exam and had to whine to Marilyn for more than half an hour on the phone. =X
After getting my cert, it also means that I'd have to PAY more for my lessons next month onwards as my grade increases. Gosh...
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Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
1 Corinthians 10:31
Amen.
Today's the official start of school term. Schooling is fun when you have fun friends around. And it took away some stuff on my mind for a while...
Had Physiology lecture early in the morning, it was kind of like a recap of the cell membrane. The lecture group consisted of people from Nursing, Dentistry and Pharmacy so it's quite a big group.
Will be having Anatomy lecture tmr. Looking forward haha. I love Biology and Nursing is mainly about Bio.
CONTRARY to popular belief, nursing is more than just cleaning sheets and clearing "something which sounds similar". That's a downright stereotype and it just shows total ignorance.
My dad has been very curious why they even came up with a Nursing degree. Reason is, people's demand has increased drastically. 20 years ago, it used to be 1 nurse : 20 SICK people. Now it's almost 1:1 and still the nurses don't even have time to finish their stuff.
People want to KNOW the reason behind everything. What injection are you giving them, why this and why that. "They don't sleep when you ask them to and they don't eat what you give them." =x Quoted from a lecturer.
So IF you ever have to go to the hospital, please be nice to the nurses. :)
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People have been telling me that I have a "mass comm" look. Haha. And wondered why the ..... did I take up nursing.
Hmmm.... I will say when I am officially a nurse. :) Guess it's not something I will do for the sake of doing... But it's still too early to say.
Btw, I passed my First Aid theory test haha. Able to move on to practical this friday.
Trick is to just give the theorically correct answers. Though it may seem silly in real life. Haha.
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Watched the Olympics after school, a bit of weightlifting, swimming and badminton.
Badminton was Indonesia vs Thailand. Though I like the Indonesians, I supported the Thailand guy!!! Cos he looked more humble and he was at the losing side. Haha.
Thank goodness no one was home cos I went "awwwwww..." "Oh man..........." "Oh NOoo................" whenever the Thai guy made some avoidable errors hahaha. =x
Quite stupid.
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I think I just screwed up something.
Happy National Day.
Last night's Beijing Olympics Opening was a BLAST. I was totally awe-stricken and captivated by the creativity, grandiosity and the pride of the Chinese towards their country...
Think it shook the world.
I love the Olympics! All thanks to the Greeks! I love the sportsmen. The Olympics is a stark display of the manifestation of the human will.
It gives me goosebumps and a slight adrenaline rush just watching them.
Don't miss the action!
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Back to National Day, our strength is certainly incomparable to China's, thus we probably can't produce the same impact. However, there is no excuse not to be proud of SINGAPORE.
Sadly, what we see here is worse than not being proud of SG. We have seen and/or experienced people jeering at those who are/wanting to be patriotic.
Ok, I'm guilty of that. =P
So I asked myself why. And I couldn't find an answer. :) It just seems funny to suddenly love SG so much just for ONE day.
What do you think?
Oh Shucks. I failed my very first test. We need 16/20 to pass and the thing is we don't even know how well (or in my case, how badly) we did. Maybe I got 15??? Ha. We don't know what are our mistakes too.
That's annoying.
Maybe I think too much...
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I have a casual thought to just...
Hmmm.....
Whatever.
School's been fun so far. We started off with the basic First Aid course which everyone in the medical field must know. Most of our lecturers are doctors and (surprisingly) they are very funny lol. We were all amused and captivated by the stories they told us.
We learnt that "common sense is not common" and that if we don't know what to do in an emergency, we should just give oxygen. =X
And much more...
One of the lecturers slipped out this "I have no bleeding idea." Hahaha.
Doc talk.
1/2 hour test tmr and then next week will be the 'official' start of school.
I looked at my timetable and I went hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... :)
One thing I hate, that is, to prove myself.
I'm the take-it-or-leave-it kinda person. I don't like having to convince people... I don't like to repeat myself...
Maybe I'm often misunderstood?
I don't know...
I can be alone by myself, totally quiet and PERFECTLY fine.
Seems like people just can't take that in...
I don't know why.
I don't understand the need to keep talking anyway. It gets really noisy.
Maybe it's just me.
People become like everyone else in order to fit in. Fit into what?
For what?
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School's starting from today. Feel like I'm entering a battlefield, with shackles on my feet. Am I prepared, am I geared?
I wouldn't know until the battle begins.
However I do know that the last thing I wanna do is to fuss over unnecessary things...
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Sometimes I wish people can stop bothering me. Just sometimes.
I think that's just a fantasy...
So don't bother me.
When faced with a problem, the easiest thing to do is to... walk away.
And that's probably the laziest and the silliest thing to do.
That's why it's so difficult to walk the narrow way. We do not have the 'luxury' to walk away... The narrow way is the only way, a one-way street.
To choose the narrow way is to choose to overcome every obstacle, to climb every mountain and to go through every valley that is along the way.
(Kinda reminded me about Super Mario game... =P)
“Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.
Matthew 7:13-14
It is to choose to trust God even when it seems like we have arrived at a dead end.
God WILL make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He WILL make a way for me
- Don Moen "God Will Make A Way"
Amen!!!
